When you feel that inner nudge, that desire to take action on something, a thought that comes into your mind about something that you have been thinking about or considering, it is your higher self pushing you and you should heed it’s urging you to do it.
You really have no excuse not to.
These inner nudges, thoughts and desires to take action would not come from a place of fear or uncertainty or desperation or depression. It would come from a place of love and guidance, of the desire to help you on your path.
Regarding weird stuff happening, you need to ignore it and just concentrate on aligning yourself with the GWB with daily prayer and meditation.
If you are in a position to be able to dedicate a lot of your time to the GWB and allowing them to train you (but it is a two-way process), they will help you but you have to also be willing and determined to put in the effort.
So, the decision is yours, this is an example of free will, you have the choice.
Guy